i don't want anything at all don't need any attention cause i'm building up a wall fortifying my defenses and when i wake up will my room still look the same will i step outside for a minute will the world know i'm in it no painnnn i wont feel anythinggg blood drains dripping down my leg i told them i'm afraid of what i do to myself every day i told them i'm afraid of what i do to myself every day take it out out out in the bath room room put it in your phone case keep it close to you take it out out out in the bath room room keep it in your phone case keep it close to you no painnnn i wont feel anythinggg blood drains dripping down my leg i told them i'm afraid of what i do to myself every day i told them i'm afraid of what i do to myself every day

(i'm somewhere else) find the portal, make an entrance scratch the surface of something different decide you hate it, know it hates you let it bury, let it break you life's an empty hallway lungs feel empty always stuff it in the crawlspace treat it like a mistake crush the pieces even smaller cut the loose ends, block the caller love the horror, burn the altar wake up six feet underwater "you're just fucked up like your father you can't focus any longer" discomposure ever present it'll kill you if you let it find the portal, make an entrance scratch the surface of something different decide you hate it, know it hates you let it bury, let it break you

(me) haven’t been outside in a month or two i'm a hermit, barricade my room until i earn it, decorate my tomb and then i burn it, nothing wakes me up like a darkroom, no light, keep a costume on don’t let em see nothing nothing darkroom, no light, keep a costume on don’t let em see nothing nothing (daywaiter) light in my head keep a fire lit starin at the ceiling thru my eyelids searching for the way out, buddy find it why u always running in the dark whatchu stacking up, mileage? but u lookin for a pilot? my apologies i don’t have the requirements wish i could get us outta here before i die by it i hear my echo in the walls, i'm gone die tryin (me) haven’t been outside in a month or two i'm a hermit, barricade my room until i earn it, decorate my tomb and then i burn it, nothing wakes me up like a darkroom, no light, keep a costume on don’t let em see nothing nothing darkroom, no light, keep a costume on don’t let em see nothing nothing

we could have coffee, doughnuts we could watch twin peaks, good fun shouldn't move closer, no touch shouldn't get caught up, no feelings but that's what i want i make it obvious i'll throw my life away for one good fuck i want what i can't have so i get what i don't want i make it all no fun i make it all blow up i'm done playing fuckup i'm done playing fuckup i'm done playing fuckup i'm done playing fuckup i could take your t-shirt home and never give it back and make new friends and put it all behind me all behind me we could have coffee, doughnuts we could watch twin peaks, good fun shouldn't move closer, no touch shouldn't get caught up, no feelings

(take it out out out in the bath room room keep it in your phone case keep it close to you take it out out out in the bath room room keep it in your phone case keep it close) i wish i fuckin worked right i wanna take walks on the westside without feeling like i might die static tearing out the night sky i wish i fuckin worked right i wanna take walks on the westside without feeling like i might die static tearing out the night sky i don't wanna wake you i don't wanna bother i don't wanna fake it it's obvious i'm not her caught in my obsessions or just being honest i'm a disappointment say it's not ironic i get kinda scared to talk sometimes feel like i'm faking my whole life and all the stupid shit that makes me cry thinking i should let it pass me by better people wrote all my best lines and they're out there living their best lives i'm so caught up tryna make up lies out of people tryna have a good time sometimes i wonder if they hear me i'm quiet but i feel like i'm screaming see how long i can live without breathing and if i get it just right i can push those feelings right down, forget about it go out, get fucked up, shouting "i'm alive for now because i found a way to kill myself" i don't wanna wake you i don't wanna bother i don't wanna fake it it's obvious i'm not her caught in my obsessions or just being honest i'm a disappointment say it's not ironic i get kinda scared to talk sometimes cause i know i'm taking my own life why am i always so afraid to die if it's not even the first time i tried facedown, pavement, i'm not fucking playing facedown, pavement, i'm not fucking playing facedown, pavement, i'm not fucking playing facedown, pavement,

to a better half: (are those the words we used?) you want a better start but you know i love to lose through the bitterness you know you always win you want a better part but it's just like you said - i wanna be just like you i wanna be just like you i wanna dress like you i wanna act like you do (just like you! just like you!) i see you in my dreams now but usually you're just hanging around a couple of times i think we made out but we've never been in this house "if it feels good, it doesn't mean that it's good" is a lesson i learned and then misunderstood so if it feels good, it doesn't mean that it's good i heard it, i heard it, i wanna be just like you i wanna be just like you i wanna be just like you i wanna trust like you i wanna love like you do i wanna be just like you i wanna be just like you i wanna trust like you i wanna love like you do i wanna be just like, just like, just like i wanna be just like, just like, just like i wanna be just like, just like, just like i wanna be just like, just like, just like

(me) i make my friends upset knocking on my door like "are you up yet?" blowing up my phone asking where i've been but my room's the only place i'm spending time in what do i even tell them? i can't keep on lying to my best friends keep my mouth shut during the discussion is it still the truth if i say nothing, nothing i don't know (7aurenner) i get lost in the sound (crowd) but in the silence i sometimes drown this is the part where i run but i got stuck here, frozen with no bounds so tell me why we're six feet under in all of these lies i try to fall in love well i don't know myself, or even try guess that's my alibi (me) you showed up in my dream we weren't making out you told me it's fucked we call this our house in the blanket fort power line fell down you just held me close and you kissed my mouth i feel you breathe in deep while you're on top of me i see my arms bruising i start to count to three i'm stuck losing sleep, rapid cycling bear it and grind my teeth, no hurt in losing me i make my friends upset knocking on my door like "are you up yet?" blowing up my phone asking where i've been but my room's the only place i'm spending time in what do i even tell them? i can't keep on lying to my best friends keep my mouth shut during the discussion is it still the truth if i say nothing, nothing

oh pity you got what was coming no pity you got what you wanted no pity you got what you wanted no pity you got what you wanted no pity you got what you wanted oh pity you got what was coming no pity you got what you wanted no pity you got what you needed yeah, no, no pity watch it burning from the front row you're sitting pretty in your chateau it's too late for "hi, hello" cause i'm jumping out the window say it with me you need something checking all your power i could compromise a quiet life if i spoke a little louder guess i'm back in the backrooms crying holding on a bottle in the bathroom promise that i had nothing against you i just cut you off because i knew i fuckin had to oh pity you got what was coming no pity you got what you wanted no pity you got what you needed big city no friends in sight and i start telling people that you died and i'm too busy building up my pride and i'm caught up in all these lies and oh pity you got what was coming no pity you got what you wanted no pity you got what you needed now you're better in a bad way you learned how to better hurt me you take your time tryna get around me knock me down when i find my feet, yeah you're breaking down every wall you see one one more door and you open now you're staring at me wide eyed you think we're talking just because you needed my life? no more looking on the bright side i'm being very fucking clear when i say that you get NOTHING

everything you said, everything you did brought the shit back up from when we were kids brush it off i guess, said "it's not that bad. can't we be best friends? cmon, don't be sad for yourself or mad at yourself don't think too hard cause it's bad for your health" but you said "it's different now" cause you got a new crowd and they're all too young to be calling shit out i don't wanna freak out again i live in the real world, i guess i live in the real world, i guess honestly i'm disappointed but i'm not tryna shut you down you didn't hear a thing that i said not that it really matters now we're all adults, i guess i don't wanna hear you cry again i don't wanna hear you cry again oh our words hurt? how does it feel on the other side? don't you hear yourself talk? don't you hear yourself lie? but you said "it's different now" cause you got a new crowd and they're all too young to be calling shit out yeah it's pretty different now cause we made a new crowd and we all found out you were bringing us down no more, i wanna see you at the front door no more, i wanna see you at the front door no more, i wanna see you at the front door no more, i wanna see you at the front door you're fucked up if you think i wanna do this i mean, i know we had to, but it feels like shit i'm not the one you wanna hurt so bad i'm not just "them", i'm not "some fag" i had your back, didn't have to do that when it comes down to it i don't owe you shit brush it off i guess, said "it's not that bad can't we be best friends, cmon, don't be sad" no more, i wanna see you at the front door no more, i wanna see you at the front door no more, i wanna see you at the front door no more, i wanna see you at the front door honestly i'm disappointed but i'm not tryna shut you down you didn't hear a thing that i said not that it really matters now no more, i wanna see you at the front door no more, i wanna see you at the front door